How Far Are You Willing to Let Go for?

Emotions and thoughts run wild especially during wee hours...

I have been wanting to draft a post, "Thing(s) you get during trying times might possibly be a positive thing."

Scratch that.

Tolerance plays a big role for my case.

As a real busy entrepreneur he is, he just cannot tolerate being "tied to/by" my new pet.

Lady is her name.
She is just the most adorable & friendly dog you will ever see.

Anyway, I am the one taking care of it, so why do you even bother?

Truth be told, my time is equivalent to his.
When we are free. We go jalan-jalan.
I would be always on my toes and pester him to go back home earlier just so that my Lady won't starve.

I bet if you are in his shoe, you would feel irritated too. Coz we can no longer truly enjoy our time out and worry for her.

Being her "mom" for maybe 1 month plus was a gift. A joy. Annoying moments too. Lol. These moments made me realized that I am 95% an overly protective mother.

*I salute mothers coz they have learnt when to protect and when to let go in order for their child(ren) and themselves to grow*

I not only take care of my stuff but somehow I think I am being possessive. It is still a learning process for me.

Because of my nature too, I think, have elevated our unhappiness.
Still learning to juggle between handling my online sites, blog, and training her.

Can I ask you a question?

Pardon me. I am still going to ask no matter what your response is going to be.

If you are me who is currently quite occupied in building a career and is going to establish a home soon, would you still keep Lady?

Moreover, your other half is super busy and there is just some time for you both to enjoy, would you still keep her?

"How far are you willing to let go for your ultimate goal," I asked myself.
Over and over.

I know, I know.
You are going to ask me why I wanted her in the first place.

Well, as a birthday gift, he granted me a wish.

"You can rear a pet. But, do not let it be a reason for you to not spend time with me & also to not be off the rail on your career."

Swiftly and happily I decided to rear her.

Little did I know that I grew so attached to her.
I no longer want to hang out as often as I have with the bf.
When I am going to leave her home (my mom's place), I felt so heavy-hearted.

Now I am also thinking that IF I leave her home (where I stay), it is also a pity that she is all alone at home.
If I leave her with his family & his younger sister (I am thankful that she loves her and takes care of her unconditionally) TOO OFTEN, I think I loose the point in rearing her in the first place.

What should I do?


Gonna sign out now.

Please leave your thoughts and help me out a little bit.

Appreciate it lots! :)

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